SeLaMat ArI rAyA aIdILaDhA

It has been tough this few weeks and been so damn messy...and i wanna apologize if it have effected any of my friends.....

And finally, everything is getting better and i hope it stick that way....

just wishing everybody slamat ari raya aidiladha....=)

I jUsT dUn GeT iT!!!!!!

one...i am pissed off when some people have the nerve saying dat i am the annoying one when all i do is minding my own business...i dun have time to get involve in gossiping and partying and having fun that is no fun at all with the people who only know how to party....i dun get involve in other people relationship eventho i know that their other half is cheating on the other one....i dun have time to be a reporter or anything and i certainly dun wanna be a shoulder to cry on when your pair leave you because all this while you forget about all your friends when you are with that someone.....
two...when i am trying to defend my marriage these stupid people just dun get one thing...I FUCKING KNOW WHAT MY HUSBAND BEEN DOING AT HIS WORKPLACE AND YOU DUN NEED TO REPORT EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!i dun know what is her intention by doing that...whether she is kind enuff or she is trying to messup my head...and i am being so damn understanding since i know that my husband is the bar manager and when u r in the spot,all girls will love you coz u have what they need...free drinks...i was a bartendress myself and i know how is it....
three....this fucking annoying gurl is trying to start something by sending my husband an sms saying "i tak kesah jadi bini no 2,i akn ttp sms u walaupun u tanak layan i,coz i tau i lagi cantik dr wife u,and fo sure i tak kolot,ur wife is...."KOLOT?!!!in what way is it?because i wear tudung?because i no longer working in a clubbing scene?my husband show her smses to me...every single one...and if u want him so badly bitch,try ur best!if he wants you he'll definitely choose u over me...i dun really care...and as far as i know,i married him because i know his nature and i definitely know dat he is not a cheater...

[angry mode].....

the things i won't be doing and do not suit me...hahahaha

I talk to my mom on the phone today...
and we chat as if we were friends...
talk about the weather,movies and hot hunks...hahahaha

My mom tell me that I would never suit to be a hollywood actor...
She say,I a lack of almost everything...
The look (hey!), the talent, and also if i get involve with hollywood, i would fall in love with almost all the actors...
hahahahahhaha

That is so true...
My weakness is handsome, cute, muscular guys...hahahahaha...
But honey...I'm married to you!
And you know that those are only dreams...
I already have you!
=)

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kejamnya manusia....

Aku baru lepas tgk clip pasal Baby Briana Lopez...dan aku terfikir kenapa ada mak bapak yang sanggup pukul anak sendiri sampaikan membawa kepada kematian?
Mak aku cakap kita boleh pukul anak dengan tujuan mengajar...
Tapi pukul jgn sampai memudaratkan dan pastikan kena dengan umurnya...
Kalau umo baru setahun takkan la nak pukul macam budak umur 13 tahun?

Menangis jugak la tengok clip tu...
Gambar lebam dihempas ibunya ke lantai...
Didera ayah dan maknya...
Yang paling aku geram...masa kat court...bleh plak mak dan ayahnya bat muka selamba macam takde apa-apa yang jadi....

Kejamnya manusia zaman sekarang...
Aku hanya mampu berdoa dan berharap yang aku tak akan sekali pun mengikut jejak orang2 macam ni....

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UpDaTe...

Whoa...it been 10 days i didn't write anything in my own blog...huhuhuhu....
Been a busy week lately...
I'm still working at the same office...(i've been promoted....yay!)
We have found a new home to live in...our OWN home...(no more rental...yay!)
My credit card just been approved...(but hubby keep it...just in case I misused it...T-T)
My son have had his first step...(just the first one...afta dat da malas nak bejalan...takut)
My husband also have started to work on his new business....

All in all I think my life has started growing...
Like a jigsaw puzzle...
From 1 piece to more pieces to complete a big picture....hehehehehe...

But sometime I just don't understand why ppl can be so thick....
Trying to be the arrogant toerag just because you have an advantage on something...
U may be beautiful, but it won't last long ok....
U may be sexy, but after u get married do u really think ur husband will be ok with dat?
U may be clever, but does it help u when all this time u are damn spoils by ur family until u can't stand on ur own feet?
U may have degree or master or what ever, but does it help u if u have that arrogant attitude as if u are better than everyone....

To that particular someone that hate me so much...here is what I want to say....
I'm not beautiful but I believe that I am married and have a loving husband beside me,
I'm not sexy, but everybody else say that doesn't matter bcoz sexiness is not about what u look outside but it about your inner self.
I may be stupid, as i don't have diploma or anything, but i believe that my salary is higher than u r because I am willing to learn even though I started at the bottom....

Hahaha...I been a lil bit emotional today...
NVM...i bet i forget about it later....
Aiyak...boss already come in....

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MoViE ReViEwS.....

These are the movies that I have seen lately...and my opinion on each one of them...

Transformers:Revenge Of The Fallen

The movie is OK...But when too much action involved it kill the movie....
Kalau dulu, sikit sgt...
Skrg dah byk sgt sampaikan rasa cam takde klimaks....
Bosan pulak....
But all in all the CGI is superb and the sound effect is good...
And it is kinda funny too....

The Proposal

Sweet....typical "arranged-marriage-fall-in-love-in-the end" plot...
But since Ryan Reynolds is playing the role...
Everything is OK...hahahaha....
That dreamy guy melted my heart out...
I wonder is he as funny and charming like the role he's playing?
Hurmmm.......*wink2*

Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince

I read the book and the movie is not what I expected it to be
But great afford though....
This movie is more like a teenagers love story than fiction movies...
Maybe because all of them grow up and emotions involved and kinda puppy love and all...
But most of the people frustrated at the end where Dumbledore died...
For me,if you read the book first,then this is the end that would be more OK to let him go....

Drag Me To Hell

I dun want to say anything about it...
Some people say it is OK,
Some says it is scary,
But for me,since I am not into ghost or horror movie so much,
I found it scary....T_T

Movies I wanted to watch:-

G.I.Joe:Rise of The Cobra
G-Force
The Ugly Truth
Ice Age

My Love....

Yesterday went out 'dating' with my hubby...
Like old times,(BB Adam left with my mom)
I feel like falling in love all over again with my hubby...
Hehehe...
He bring me to the first place we went out together...
Singing our favorite song and playing our favorite game(bowling)
Walking hand to hand...
And seems like never wanna let go...
That is the best birthday present ever...

I remember the first time I met him,
He is the craziest and the most bad-tempered person I have ever met,
And he is also kind and full of laughter,
I remember the first thing he say to me...
"Nasib baik la ko da ade bf, klo tak esok jugak aku pegi meminang ko..."
hehehehe...sounds stupid and also sweet...
And guest what...
After a month break up with my ex bf...
He ask me to marry him and he already sent his sister to meet my mom and grandparents,

It is the shortest relationship as a couple and then we got engaged,
After 8 months we are happily married,
And he is the happiest person ever to hear that he is getting a son,
He was there comforting me in the labour room,
And he is the one that encourage and giving me hope,
I still remember the smile on his face when he first heard Adam's voice,

Jimmy,
You are the best husband and friend anyone could ever have...
143...forever...hehehehe...

Monday and it's Special!

Woke up this morning and i certainly feel good...
My husband set me my breakfast...and that is so sweet....
I never have anyone set me my breakfast before (except for my mom)...
hehehehehe...
And with a kiss on the cheek...
He said"Happy Birthday..."

My first birthday with a husband and a son....
The world seem complete to me...
Plus my grandma n grandpa come all the way from Kedah to celebrate my Birthday
Last night at midnight my best buddy, Fizi, was the 1st person to wished me my Birthday...

All in all, I called my mom this morning and thanked her for giving birth to me on the same date 24 years ago...
I have gone through the pain that she had when delivering me,
And I feel the same thing when she heard my voice the 1st time...

After being a mother, I understand all the feeling the mothers had,
Right now is just the pain in giving birth and the joy of having a child...
Maybe in 10 years time I'll experience more but still I can't wait for my Adam to grow older....

Anyway...for me...birthdays are for the mom and the child...
So starting from this year...I'm buying my mom a gift on my birthdays....
As a symbol of Thank You for letting me live...

"Happy Birthday Azah".....

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Mat Jiwa 98-02

I just look back at my old school pictures...
I have a good laugh with my husband on every picture...
why?
I look so ridiculous and fat and comot...hahahahaha

My husband ask me on how I was in school?
And I think I want to share something here...

1998...
I am second intake student,
I already have primary school friends which is first intake there,(Nad and RoZ)
I am not good at making friends actually,
So I tend to sit alone doing my own stuff,
and I am the most untidy person in my batch....(hahahaha...it was back then la...not now)
Maybe because I don't really care about what people think of me...
I also have a big crush on somebody when I was in form 1...ngeh3....
haish...old stories....
I am more to rebellious kind in my batch....
I am not sure why....
hehehehe...

Didi : she is actually my best-friend. We became close after the eve of my birthday in 2001...hehehe...
she has the same thinking as I am....
Satu kepala gila...hehehehe...
we have been through so much things....
we shared most of the secrets...hehehehe...
Damn How I miss her right now...
been apart for a while but still keep in touch....hehehehehe....

Pjah: also my partner in crime...
We get to know each other In PBSM....
she has a different way in see things and she is very flexible...
can get close to almost everyone....
she is a good friend and also the best adviser...hehehehe...
She is fun to be with and the 3 of us(Didi,Pjah and me)...always back each other up....

Syitah: She is closer to Didi than I am but we hang out together too....
She is also A PBSM...
She is creative and also hard-working(this is how i see her la)

Zack: we are not that close but some how she given me a great impact in life...
I have always make her my bench mark in achieving something...
I always wanted to overcome her achievement...hehehehe....
but all in all she is a hard-working girl...
always find the best way to gain something...
and she is also a good friend(even though we are not close)...
and i am so glad to hear that she further her study somewhere in Sheffield and I am happy for her...she deserve that after all the hard work...

Fairuzradzi: hehehehe...he is my puppy love at school...
sweet, caring but a bit aggressive...
he is more like a friend than a special boyfriend...(noty2 azah...=p)
caught by Ustaz Tarmizi when we were out dating...ngeh3...
He is OK...the problem is me actually...
I tend to get bored easily....
After 3 years in a relationship we ended it and become best-friend...
but right now i have lost contact with him and i wonder what is he doing right now?

At school I have a very bad attitude...
A very bad record...but I love some of the thing at school...
My PBSM team in 2002: I am the youngest PBSM to be appointed as commander....
Sort of a leader to lead my 'kawad" team laa.....
I love it so much....I don't know why...
I love sports so much...
I play in Basketball team, handball, and i like to try almost any kind of sports...
hehehehe...
i think if i am a guy...
I will have a lot of secret admirers...hehehehe....

There's a lot of things I want to put in...
But...(huarghhh) sleepy....
Can't ....continue...typing....
ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZ......

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MeMoRy!!!

A friend of mine just started a new discussion topic in Facebook Group (We're Legends 98-02)...

It's about a big secret that anyone have about anyone when we are still studying in Mat Jiwa...
Actually I happen to have a lot of juicy secrets and also rumors(not sure whether it is true or not) on my colleagues...

I have few people who having crush on specific somebody....
I have friends who like each other but they are too shy to say their feeling...
I also have a partner in crime....
and i also have a secret of an activity which my best friend also don't know...hehehehe..(aramak)

My crime in partner is actually Didi(most of the time) and Pjah...
hehehehe....
Didi : the only person who always cover me up when i go to dating...hahahaha...
most of the time she is my partner in crime...of course...she is my best friend...hehehehe...
pjah : I known her for so many years but only manage to be close to her after an incident (hehehe...pjah i think u remember the incident)...after get to know her....i realise that i have misjudge her...a lot...hehehe...sorry wifey!!!

I remember smoking in the teachers toilet once in a weekend...
then it became a habit to me...
and sometimes i pity some people have to take the blame on my behalf...
huhuhu....
I always been summon to the PK HEM office for some several cases...
but since I am a girl so everthing is covered up...huhuhu....
as long as i remember...
I have done a lot of bad things...and manage to get away from it...
haish...bad bad Azah...hehehehe...

I am also not a 'people' person since i am always tense and can't cope up with 'my environment' well...hehehehe...
I look back in time and I compare it to me now...
I have learn so much from my past...
and i will not forget all the memories...
huhuhu.....
Maybe I tell all about me in another post since I am too sleepy rite now...

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If I aInT gOt YoU...

"some people want it all
but i don't want nothing at all
if it ain't u baby
if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you..."

I have played this song over and over again in my MP3...
And can't seem to get bored listening to it....
It means a lot to me...
And I believe it mean a lot too to some of the friends that i know...

This song made me remember Kak Kam...
A sister when i first join live band...(yes i used to sing in clubs)
This is her favourite song and she can sing it just like alicia sing(without the piano...hehehehe)
I miss her a lot....
I wonder where the band been to for the last 2 years...
And somehow it made me realise...
I miss singing so much....
And I miss my Kak Kam too...

This song dedicated to my husband and Kak Kam(wherever she is)
Everything means Nothing...
If I Aint Got You!

KaRmA....

"What goes around come around"

Sound familiar huh?i think i have heard 2-3 songs on karma....
The question is : Do you believe in Karma?
Well I do....

Mak aku dulu selalu advice benda yang sama berulang kali...
"Jangan bat jahat kat orang lain nnt kita akan kena balik"
Mula-mula susah nak pecaya...
Tapi bila makin besar,aku sendiri yang rasa benda yang sama...
Hehehehe....

Sekarang aku mals nak balas ape yang org buat kat aku...
Aku pasrah je...sbb aku tau satu hari nnt...
Org lain akan buat kat diorg plak..
Hehehehe....

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Welcome to me....

Well this is my first post for my own blog...(i guess)

Tak pernah terfikir nak tulis blog sebelum ni...
Maybe because I hate to open up my feelings to others...
Hurmmm...maybe....

Anyway,thank to my hubby for such a brilliant idea....
He suggested I open 1 for me...
Not as a platform to spill all the beans...
But more to a method to speak up my mind...
Dan semestinya satu cara nk lepaskan geram secara sihat...(hehehe...ye ke?)

Seorg kawan yang baru dikenali pernah bertanya:"why Phoenix?Terlampau ikut mitos greek ke?". Mmg aku tau yang Phoenix hanyalah haiwan fantasi yang tak mungkin akan wujud tapi dari ciri-ciri burung itu sendiri, banyak menarik perhatianku.

Aku selalunya bangkit dari kegagalanku sendiri...
Selalunya aku byk baiki diri aku sendiri dari buat kesilapan yang sama....

Banyak yang dah berubah
and for once I am proud (chet!) to say that I am more succesful and better than I was before...

Haish... I have to stop before I start babling too much...
Anyway...I think I will have fun by starting this blog...
I hope the one reading this will enjoy reading my post too...[hopefully]

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