BFF???!!!!

Best Friend Forever???
Hard to find a good friend these days...
y??most of the time i get friends i know is just friends...
Not qualify to be Best friend..
Maybe because i have been hurt before...
It's hard for me to accept another....

I have a best friend once...and she back stab me really hard...
she used my name to gain respect from my seniors....
she fake stories using my name and let me take the blame....

And recently,one of my 'friend'...only find me when she have problems...
She used to be a good girl but get to know the wrong crowd..
She know this one girl who just turn 21...
She just get to know clubbing life and been obsessed with it...
partying almost every week and this friend of mine actually addicted to that too...

I'm the one that actually introduce them...
i thought she(my friend) would know better since she is 26...
But they have the fun and all...
when they have problem then they come and see me...
what the heck with that????

i've hurt so much that i actually toss and delete her away from my life....
I was there to comfort her when she was down...
I was there cheering her up...
But she choose to be with that girl and left me....
y???
because that girl actually convince her that I am too old for the scene...
The scene is clubbing life....
and quote that i am not as hot and as beautiful as they are...
well said....
they wrong about one thing though...
there's nothing special with partying and it doesn't make u the 'it' girl
been more than 6 years working in clubs make me realize that
the is more to life than just partying....

BFF??juz forget about it if u found them in clubs...
coz they won't last forever...
believe me.....
i've been there.....

Is anyone out there???

I went to watch "Twilight:Eclipse"...
I was thinking...if there is such thing as vampire and shape-shifter(werewolf in this case) it would be a very dangerous and weird world....

But all in all..I love the cast more than the story...
The story is better read than watch...

Anyway...watching twilight make me think...
Is there guys out there that is so gentleman that would fight for a girl the same way Jacob Black and Edward Cullen do....I mean fairly?
there might be some guys but most of the guys these days are far more aggressive
either they kill the other guy or the girl will suffer....
well hopefully,my son won't get involve in this kind of love....
Like I was before...hehehehehehehehe

RanDom!

Juz read 2 books about life...
"Teh Tarik Kaw Wunne:A Malaysian Smorgasbord!"-Zaim Al Amin
"The Sky Is Crazy:TAles From A Trolley Dolly."-Yvonne Lee

These 2 books interesting...
It talks about life....People Behavior...Current Situation...
I love reading these types of books coz it make me think a lot...on everything...
I've experienced life a lilte bit more than others at my age...
I've been out and about since I'm 15....
I've my first part-time job when I was 16...
I live independently without my parents help when I was 21....
I have my 1st son when I am 20++...(hehehehe)...have a good guess....

1 thing I know from my life experiences (so far)....
I love to study people....
the things that they do...the way they react....
the rubbish they sometimes talk....the emotions...
the face expression...
Its Fascinating....

Homo-Sapien is one subject that will never end...
There are a lot of thing that can be learn...
And it will change (not most of it) almost all the time...

So,I've concluded that instead of expressing my feelings in my blog,
I've decided to log in my opinion on certain areas or situation or what ever....
I wanted to be the thinker again...
The inner me that i have neglected for some time....

Hopefully...it will work...the way i wanted it to be...
And feel free to leave me a comment or your opinion....

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SeLaMat ArI rAyA aIdILaDhA

It has been tough this few weeks and been so damn messy...and i wanna apologize if it have effected any of my friends.....

And finally, everything is getting better and i hope it stick that way....

just wishing everybody slamat ari raya aidiladha....=)

I jUsT dUn GeT iT!!!!!!

one...i am pissed off when some people have the nerve saying dat i am the annoying one when all i do is minding my own business...i dun have time to get involve in gossiping and partying and having fun that is no fun at all with the people who only know how to party....i dun get involve in other people relationship eventho i know that their other half is cheating on the other one....i dun have time to be a reporter or anything and i certainly dun wanna be a shoulder to cry on when your pair leave you because all this while you forget about all your friends when you are with that someone.....
two...when i am trying to defend my marriage these stupid people just dun get one thing...I FUCKING KNOW WHAT MY HUSBAND BEEN DOING AT HIS WORKPLACE AND YOU DUN NEED TO REPORT EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!i dun know what is her intention by doing that...whether she is kind enuff or she is trying to messup my head...and i am being so damn understanding since i know that my husband is the bar manager and when u r in the spot,all girls will love you coz u have what they need...free drinks...i was a bartendress myself and i know how is it....
three....this fucking annoying gurl is trying to start something by sending my husband an sms saying "i tak kesah jadi bini no 2,i akn ttp sms u walaupun u tanak layan i,coz i tau i lagi cantik dr wife u,and fo sure i tak kolot,ur wife is...."KOLOT?!!!in what way is it?because i wear tudung?because i no longer working in a clubbing scene?my husband show her smses to me...every single one...and if u want him so badly bitch,try ur best!if he wants you he'll definitely choose u over me...i dun really care...and as far as i know,i married him because i know his nature and i definitely know dat he is not a cheater...

[angry mode].....

the things i won't be doing and do not suit me...hahahaha

I talk to my mom on the phone today...
and we chat as if we were friends...
talk about the weather,movies and hot hunks...hahahaha

My mom tell me that I would never suit to be a hollywood actor...
She say,I a lack of almost everything...
The look (hey!), the talent, and also if i get involve with hollywood, i would fall in love with almost all the actors...
hahahahahhaha

That is so true...
My weakness is handsome, cute, muscular guys...hahahahaha...
But honey...I'm married to you!
And you know that those are only dreams...
I already have you!
=)

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kejamnya manusia....

Aku baru lepas tgk clip pasal Baby Briana Lopez...dan aku terfikir kenapa ada mak bapak yang sanggup pukul anak sendiri sampaikan membawa kepada kematian?
Mak aku cakap kita boleh pukul anak dengan tujuan mengajar...
Tapi pukul jgn sampai memudaratkan dan pastikan kena dengan umurnya...
Kalau umo baru setahun takkan la nak pukul macam budak umur 13 tahun?

Menangis jugak la tengok clip tu...
Gambar lebam dihempas ibunya ke lantai...
Didera ayah dan maknya...
Yang paling aku geram...masa kat court...bleh plak mak dan ayahnya bat muka selamba macam takde apa-apa yang jadi....

Kejamnya manusia zaman sekarang...
Aku hanya mampu berdoa dan berharap yang aku tak akan sekali pun mengikut jejak orang2 macam ni....

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